April 15, 1970
There seems to be a more and more powerful Pressure, and all difficulties are arising (gesture of rising from below). People quarrel and … oh!
And it’s not just here, it’s all over the country. And I am told it’s all over the world.
You know, it’s like a Pressure … (gesture of implacable descent), so everything rises.
(Mother’s voice is husky)
A dozen letters everyday, from people imploring for help…. Everything is becoming difficult.
Things will probably have to become still more difficult.
It looks like that…. Only, it’s … just at breaking point.
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Russia and America have reached, they say, the "balance of terror."
It’s frightening.
(Mother plunges in)
I am unable to speak. I can maybe just answer a question, but I can’t speak.
What can one do?
What can one do?…
(Mother goes back
into a contemplation till the end)
It can go on indefinitely!
Every time I try to ask myself a question, or to ask you, I feel it’s
futile – it melts away.
Yes, that’s how it is.
The only thing is to be like this [gesture with hands open].
(Mother laughs)
Then it’s fine, very fine….
Yes.
But the impression is that there’s nothing else to do.
(Mother smiles and goes elsewhere)
I think it will be better if you bring questions…. I have difficulty speaking, but I can speak.
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