September 23, 1970

(Mother appears very withdrawn.)

I found some old papers again....

(Satprem reads)

"When you stand in the light of the Supreme

Consciousness you must not make a shadow."

I told you the story.... [[See Agenda X of April 16 and May 3, 1969. ]] That's fine.

(silence)

What have you brought?

There is the November Bulletin.... Is there anything new?

No.

(Then Satprem proposes to publish some fragments of the con

versation of September 9 - the infernal Agenda - in the Bulletin.)

Regarding Sri Aurobindo, [["The tortures he was subjected to." ]] we mustn't put it in the Bulletin.... That's impossible, it would cause a revolution. As for the end, [["Has the time come?" - Mother's doubt. ]] that's terrible - we can't put that.

I'll leave only what I told you: "We shall conquer, Mother," and

 your answer, "Yes." And that's all.

It's difficult to put that without... without something comforting.

Do you have something comforting?

(Mother laughs, long silence

 meditation)

Peace has returned again.

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What do we do for this Agenda? Do we publish it like that?

There should be something at the end.... Because now that [the "hell"] is gone, it's quite gone. We should somehow say that I have come out of it.

There's this "We shall conquer, Mother" left at the end.

Yes. All right.

(long silence)

I'd like something comforting at the end.... I don't have it this time.

It will be for February.

February next year?... (Mother seems to find it far away)

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