November 30, 1968

For February 21 next, couldn't we broadcast at the Playground

the recording of that very important conversation, you know,

 on the "central experience"?

[[Conversation of November 23. Through the "Notes on the Way" or otherwise Satprem always wanted to make Mother's experience known to the Ashram, but did not at the time understand the reasons for her reluctance. ]]

No.

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Impossible to speak.... The body constantly feels it's learning - learning to live. And learning to be what it must be. Constantly, night and day.

And that's all.

It has everything to learn.

And very acutely, the sensation that speech distorts, the word distorts.... The body doesn't like speaking.

(long silence)

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For example, these last few days, it was wondering about one thing; are there bodies that are proud? ... There are lots of bodies that are proud when the vital and the mind are in them. But without that ... it's not possible! Not possible.

(meditation)

But it constantly has the sensation not only of the Presence but of the divine Action, like this (gesture like a flow passing through Mother and onto people), and it doesn't even think, "It's through me," not even that. It feels (to translate) that it could be through anything. Some very precise actions take place, and the body is conscious, but never conscious that it's doing the action, or that the action is taking place through it. The sense of "it" doesn't exist ... except, now and then, for the impression of something somewhat inert; it still has the sensation of its inertia - it's not the full Consciousness. But it doesn't even bother about that, it's not its business.

There's a keen and constant observation of EVERYTHING, each and every thing going on - inexpressible.... By the time you've said it, a whole lot of other things have taken place.

There you are.

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