June 2, 1971

(Concerning Satprem's difficulties)

I myself had felt that something in you, some part of the consciousness -- a very external and superficial part -- was pulling.

Yes, that's right.

And I was wondering how come?...

When it came, I went on saying: things are guided, therefore this has a reason and I have something to learn. But I see this thing is really untransformable.

It must be rejected from the nature. You see, it's something that has to be transformed from life to life -- it must be eliminated from your personality.

(Satprem puts his head on Mother's knees,

Mother bends down to kiss him)

I've suffered a lot.... May I be capable of serving you, Mother.

It's a part of the past that must disappear, and it clings on desperately -- in a different form in each person.

(Mother goes within, gasping for breath,
she tries to speak half in trance

without success)

To want only what God wants.

(Then Mother closes her eyes and smiles,
palms open, and goes within)

To cling to the Divine like this (clenched fists). To cling ... (Mother has tears in her eyes, she gasps) ... so that the Divine alone carries us. That's all.

(Mother tries to speak

 half in trance)

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... All, we must be all aspiration, intense, intense and constant....

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