July 24, 1971

It's not over yet (gesture of tugging).... And you?

I don't know, Mother.

How are you?

I don't know ... all right, I guess.

(Mother laughs)

You surely know better than I!

I tell you, we are no longer here, we are not yet there.... So it seems stupid. The body is more and more conscious, and it is conscious of the old habits that pull backwards but it is also conscious of the new possibilities that are there, that try to.... There's only one movement to make, a movement of adherence, and ... everything would be all right -- MARVELOUSLY all right. The old thing is like an old wall being torn down. That's it. So it's quite a ridiculous situation.

The body feels it's no longer here: this holds no reality for it anymore, but it's not yet THERE. So it's like this (oscillating gesture between the two). It aspires. It has learned to invoke the Divine all the time, all the time, all the time, whatever it is doing, whether there are people present, whether it's speaking or not; whatever it does, there is a constant invocation. That way, it's all right. But ... it's not positive yet. (Mother coughs) And this cold seems to go away and then it comes back. It's not an ordinary cold.

But as soon as I go into deep silence, then, for someone who's

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 receptive, it can be very helpful. As soon as I go into deep silence, the Presence becomes concrete, evident. Then it's helpful. But as soon as I speak, I am ... (gesture of crumbling away).

So that's what I can offer to you, unless you have something to say....

(meditation)

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