February 28, 1973

(For the last ten days, the "conversations" have been spent in

 silence and contemplation - I have the impression that Mother

wants me to understand something by another means. But

what? Furthermore, the attendant is now almost constantly

 in the room. She no longer bothers to pretend being in the

 bathroom. She breaks in on the conversation, offers her own

 comments - of course, since Mother "can't hear. "... People go

 in and out of Mother's room as they please, and continue

 their own conversations. The atmosphere is quite changed

 This is perhaps why Mother tries to establish another type of

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 communication with me, another kind of link. But silence ...

 is very silent. And I did not realize what was fast approaching

 before my very eyes.)

So? ... How are you?

I don't know too well.

Not too well?

I don't know.

(Mother laughs)

One feels one doesn't in the least know what path one is

 treading.

Neither do I! ... Neither do I.

But I know it's on purpose. I am not worried, because I know it's on purpose. We have a mental way of knowing, which is worthless - truly worthless. As Sri Aurobindo said, it goes from falsehood to truth - whereas the Supramental goes from truth to truth. And it has nothing to do with the mental approach. That I know. When I am completely still, with no one here and none to disturb me, then ... (Mother closes her eyes) a certain condition comes ... and you feel that if that developed, it ... (Mother smiles silently). You enter a luminous immensity ... devoid of any questions.

(Mother takes Satprem's hands

 and plunges in)[369]

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